Jesus Christ is the rock I am built upon. He is the sustainer of my soul, the love of my life and so much more. He is my King... Do you know him?

40 days and 40 nights...!!!

My last night of food freedom is upon me! (Insert discipline) for 40 days and 40 nights I will be giving up things that I love for things that I love not so much... Lent has arrived! 

Ash Wednesday is the first day of Lent in the Christian tradition; it is the season of preparation for the resurrection of Jesus Christ. Lent is a time of sacrifice for Jesus, it is a time for repentance, communion with God, thanks-giving and abstaining from things we enjoy i.e. television, food, internet etc. The forty days represent the time that, Jesus spent in the desert before the beginning of his public ministry, where he endured temptation by Satan.

Biblical scriptures for reference; 

Matthew chapter 4 verses 1 and 2

Mark chapter 1 verses 12 and 13

Luke chapter 4 verses 1 and 2

Matthew chapter 9 verse 15

See you on the other side of your spiritual growth! Happy fasting... xoxo

Lonely, insecure girl seeks... xoxo

As far back as I can remember I’ve wanted love, specifically to be loved. I wanted the man of my dreams to sweep me off my feet and wanting this has played a big part in the decisions I have made. For a long time I viewed being single as an underachievement, it was me failing and inevitably feeling I was not good enough. I did not feel like a woman, because I wasn’t wanted by a man. Thoughts of insecurity, loneliness and doubt would constantly plague me. The thought of being someone’s girlfriend came with warmth and a daydream of love; it was the best feeling I ever knew. There have been times in my life I have compromised who I am if only for a moment a month or a year; it was better to feel valuable temporally than not at all, but this value was worthless and left me more insecure, lonely and questioning who I was. I wish I could tell you after the first time I felt this way, I got myself together and didn’t look back but I can’t. I found myself wrapped in the same situation over and over again, a different name and face. The truth is each time I compromised, I lost strength and it was a little harder to fight for me, love me and to understand why.  

Of course, there were times I was happy, full of laughs and so much fun to be around but with every high there is a low and I came crashing down. My bed became my refuge; under my duvet was my safe place. The only satisfaction I found was at the end of the phone with my ‘high’ when he decided to answer my call. I was consumed with him, him came and went... Giving him what he wanted didn’t make him stay, it let him know I didn’t a) know who I was, b) know my worth or c) care about myself and if I didn’t either then how could he?!

Stop, I don’t want this, what am I doing are a few of the things I would scream in my thoughts but they were overridden. I made bad decisions because of the emptiness I felt! Not knowing, loving and appreciating myself lead me to a dark place.

Albert Einstein said, the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. It took me a long time to break this cycle.

Sharing this part of my life with you is difficult. Yes, I have come to terms with it but having it on a platform so others can read it drummed up an uneasiness feeling. Feeling this gave me the assurance I had to go ahead and post this part of my life, it captures the essence of ‘The Power of a Word’. I want to let you know, you are not the only one who went through what you went through, that you can get past your heartaches and you can go from strength to strength.

Put a stop to the negative patterns in your life. Understand, loving and appreciating you, are three of the most important things you’ll ever do; as they are vital attributes in forming the woman you become. Try to take the time each day to get to know you a little bit better, start a journal noting the things you like and dislike, the ways you react and the things you would like to change. 

I thank God for loving me, even when I did not love myself and giving me the strength to share this with you. 

xoxo

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Pursuit is the evidence of desire xoxo

Ladies, have you ever been so into a guy to stop yourself from calling, you leave your phone in your room then do as many things as possible to distract yourself... Thinking when I go back he would have called; only to go back to find NO MISSED CALLS! Why do we convince ourselves he would call just because we walked away for a little while.
Have you ever been so stuck on him that you switch your phone off and on just to ensure your phone reception working!
Have you ever been so stuck on him you call or text him “accidently”!
If you have answered yes to any of above, it’s time to wake up and get a grip lady! Men should not be able to take up so much our ‘mind space’ and this is why I titled this piece Pursuit is the Evidence of Desire.
Men are born conquers, they are naturally competitive and enjoy working hard for what they want. They like playing the role of a man, so allow them to. They respect you when you do not give yourself to them on the first date. The suspense it bitter sweet for him, of course he would like to spend the night with you, you are beautiful so of course he likes your smile and feels as though he could speak to you for hours, he has probably felt this way a few times before. Please do not misunderstand, I am not naming every guy on this earth a ‘heartbreaker’ but what I am sure of is he wants a woman he knows he had to fight for, he is a King and you are a Queen, you may even be his Queen so do not allow yourself to be anything less than that.
These are a few of the attributes I think a queen possesses;

A Woman who is patient

A Woman who is kind

A Woman who does not envy

A Woman who does not boast

A Woman who is not proud

A Woman who is not rude

A Woman who is not self-seeking

A Woman who is not easily angered and does not bring up past wrongs

A Woman who does not delight in evil

A Woman who rejoices in truth

A Woman who always protects, trusts, hopes and perseveres

A Woman who acts in love.

If he desires you he will pursue you so ladies don’t give him sex to get love and guys don’t pretend to love to get sex.

xoxo